Writer: Gold Lah
My husband’s attitudes after five years of marriage changed
towards me. Before we were joined and during our courtship days, he used to be
so caring, sensitive and passionate; I believed he me loved deeply then, but it
is otherwise now. He beats me and abuses me in ways that I cannot explain. I
kept faith and thought he would change, and I believe the reason for the change
in attitude was because I was unable to conceive after five years of marriage.
I knew it wasn’t my fault because Doctors pronounced us healthy after series of
medical checkups. We tried numerous IVF, but it was all unsuccessful.
Kamim’s attitudes towards me got worse during the tenth year
of our marriage. I got bruised in all part of my body, most times I land in the
hospital but still, I told no-one because I believed in the saying that love
conquers all. I tried to understand him an begged him to let us see a
therapist, but he gets so angry whenever I bring it up.
During the middle of our tenth year, God blessed us with the
fruit of the womb, and I got so excited that i thought Kamim will change and be
the loving husband I married. He stopped beating me but he seems to distance
himself, as if getting too close to me would make him lose his temper. During
my gestation period, I wasn’t happy unlike other women in my condition. My home
was a living hell and i lost all focus.
My baby came around in July 2nd and though Kamim
seems pleased but he refused to touch our baby, Kemira. Kemira became the
centre of my world, all my love and attention, i gave to her and I refused to
cry again because God has given me a new reason to smile again. Unfortunately,
Kamim’s case became so bad that I thought of running away, but my sympathy and compassion
got the best of me. Daily, I nurtured the hope that my love will heal him from
the unknown pains he is lashing out from, but his condition never gets any
better. He comes home late, rejects my food and throws punches at any given
opportunity.
Along the line, I felt as if I lost my own sanity too. He
abuses me in front of our child and throws anything he finds at me. My world crumpled
before me and the more the pain, the more I put back from my social life. I
refused to visit my friends and family. I was reduced to nothing so I refused
to let my friends and family see me in this condition. However, the day I made
up my mind to leave Kamim and vanish from him forever was the day Kemira’s
teacher brought her home from school and reported that Kemira had always kept
to herself and cry most times in class. He then gave me the letter which was
found in kemira’s locker. The letter reads thus “God, please come and kill daddy and save mum”. As I
gathered my baby into my hands, i cried painfully and made up my mind to
packout at last.
As I was still in the room packing Kemira’s stuff, he got
back from work. He had come home earlier than i thought. And I didn’t want him to see me go. Suddenly,
he came dashing from our room to Kemiras’, with eyes flaming red. I quickly
told my leg to take me as far away as possible from him, but that day, my leg
refused my brain’s command. And it was after something heavy hit me that I knew
I was doomed. My body went limp as rushes of blows and punches accompanied
rains of curses. My eyes were closed to the world, and though I could hear the
cry of our only child but my body was motionless, then it all blacked out.
Some hours later, I found myself on a dumping ground with my
baby crying... we were drenched with rain and filth, then it occurred to me, HE
HAD LEFT ME FOR DEAD... how wicked could he be? Fortunately after days of
begging for money and being mistaken for a mad woman, I got to my parent house
at last. My family got furious, my mum wants me to report to the police, dad wants
him arrested and my friends pleaded to sue him to court.
True, the pain Kamim caused me was everlasting, but I STILL
LOVED HIM!
IN THIS CASE, WHAT
WOULD YOU HAVE ME DO?
PLEASE I NEED YOUR
HELP URGENTLY
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